Avva!!

Avva, yes that's how I call my grand mom.. She passed away today and reached the eternal state. I did not see her for the past 2 years well it has been 2 years since I visited India.Yesterday when my mom told me the news that my avva is serious, a kind of pinch, guilt and I just burst out crying immediately. I know no one stays in this world forever.But the sudden kind of absence was difficult to sink in.I am gonna miss her terribly.She was always with us. She was the bond between my dad and his brothers.I remember the days when all of us cousins used to meet during the summer holidays she use to make all of us sit together   and give us lunch.The food use to be extraordinarily tasty when she use to feed us.I remember the arguments turning into big fights( for the rebellious nature of mine) I use to have for all the traditions she use to impose on us and she use to go crazy as she did not know the reason behind it.I always wanted to have a good time with her but somehow something use to crop up and it used to go in the opposite direction.It all changed when I got married and when I was pregnant. I have heard from my uncle's that she used to talk more about me, how am I gonna mange without any help and how badly she wanted to see Adit.I wanted her to see Adit, her great grand son and whenever I use to talk to her she use to ask about him.This time when I visit India, its gonna be very different without her in my place, I cannot imagine a house without her.Adit was hugging me constantly today and kissing me maybe he understood that I was in pain.Some things cannot be explained and it has to be felt and maybe that's why it  is called as Blood Relation.But wherever you are avva, I will terribly miss u, I just want to say I love u loads and may your soul rest in peace!!! Love u Avva!!!