Changes -Part 2

I read  a very interesting article posted on my friends wall as how a girl changes to a woman and then to a mother gradually and a mother anticipating  the change which will happen in her daughter very soon. I would agree with every word in the article because as a  mom I undergo it every day in my life and today was no exception but with a little spice added to it. Adit was transitioning to 2's class ( of course he is a 2 year old) starting today. The transition is gonna be slow so it was just 2 hours today and a formal letter of transition was given to me and P ( hubby) last week and my tantrums started since I saw the letter.

I was like how is he gonna handle it? he is gonna miss his teachers in toddlers class? he is gonna get low,grumpy go into hibernation?.he is gonna miss his friends?blah blah blah... Well all these were my assumptions When I called his teacher today and asked her how did it go? She was like" He was fine, he was probably upset for a little time initially and he handled it well and he was happy being there" I was like that's it...I expected her to say some kind of dramatic thing or scene which happened over there.

My husband and his teachers always say I am one who is resisting the change and not Adit. To some extent I would agree with it but from a MOM perspective, I would not coz I would always want my son to be comfortable ,get the best out of everything and I saw him being comfortable with his teachers in the present class, hugging him, taking care of him so well. I know the 2's teacher is also as wonderful as the present ones.But as everyone says and I know I hate to admit this one fact but I had to that my son needs to grow and develop as per the age and he is no more a baby and I have to let him do that.

He is ready for the next stage and I know he is and maybe I am not so I ve to let him go and get adjusted to the change. Of course I did have a talk with him about this change, not sure how much he understood of what I said and meant but he sure did a good job today and made me proud.Well, I am sure this kind of rambling is gonna come from me every now and then as and when the changes occur to him until my son is old enough to say" Mama, please stop worrying about me, I am fine and I can take care of myself" but does it ever gonna stop?? nahhhh... well we all are called the "MOMs"and that breed never stops thinking about their kids.

Well as for today I am gonna get a good peaceful sleep in the night with a happy feeling that "All's WELL"

Milestone --- after 13 years...

This has always been my secret, only few people who are very close to me and know me in and out know about this incident. I never had the courage to share this unless a person comes into my close circle.I was scared that some might show pity or sympathy ( Which I cannot tolerate) on my weakness or they might even make fun of me. I am a highly sensitive person although I appear to be extremely mentally strong outside ( of course I did become one after this struggle) It is almost 13 years since this accident happened and it was when I was in my college. Yes, the big accident while I was going on a bike actually the accident was nothing but the after effect was bad. Completely lost my right knee, had to undergo a surgery which was supposed to be an hour but lasted more than 6-7 hours and the doctors were shocked to see the damage which was done in the knee. Everyone gave up on me except my mom and my doctor. There were comments whether I would ever walk again in my life.Tough phase. Everything around me seemed very difficult. Even to get a glass of water I had to depend on some one. The pain, mentally and physically, the guilt of being a burden to everyone killed me almost every day.But my doctor  always use to  say 1 thing and I remember that even today " Never Let anyone tell you that you cannot do something"

Well that being the past, I have always had that fear that I cannot be completely normal again..I cannot jump, hop, cycle.. well this was my thought, my fear .But this changed... Yesterday when I was at gym, my trainer completely removed my fear and she made me do all these things which I never thought I would do it ever in my life. She actually saw the fear in me, and she said if you walk, run and do everything as a normal person you could as well do these things and said its just mental courage and not to think about anything else and let go off the fear by saying" You are very strong than you think you are"( Thanks Carla!! I would have not done it without you).It might be very trivial to a lot of you... but as for me and the people who know about my surgery and accident would definitely join me in saying "its a Milestone" indeed and also to completely let go of the fear I had built up in all these years. It was as if Paulo Coelho Quotes was coming true " And when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it" and the confidence, motivation and the inspiration you get after the achievement is incredible and cannot be put in words.

I had to build up courage to put all these in words and share it so that someone somewhere who reads it might let go off the inhibition of anything that had been building up for years and go ahead and venture it.

Going Organic!!

Organic...well this has been pending in my list for a long time, contemplating, confused between the pro's and con's. This all started as a casual conversation, turned into an argument  then a debate and finally concluded.I was talking to my colleague yesterday(Thanks Rich!!) during lunch about the healthy eating habits and healthy food. Organic food played a major role in the topic.I was always under the constant myth( Pardon my ignorance) that eating organic reduces the immunity in the body as it is not grown in the normal way as the other food items.But I was wrong, eating the inorganic stuff reduces the immunity coz Organic ones are grown in the natural way.Lot of benefits for Organic, toxic substances are reduced, more close to nature and last but not the least, it is the best way to protect the future generations.

I am aware that the change is not going to be as easy as it sounds.We have to think,breathe, speak, advocate organic in every possible thing in our lives.It's an entire life changing attitude.But if it's going to help us in the long run, why not make that change? It's a matter of time to adapt it.My husband and I also had the discussion about this later in the day, and we concluded that the benefits of being organic is something hard to ignore or put it off. So we are going Organic starting this weekend(Whole Foods, here I come)

I hope I stay on this decision and make the complete transition.. Wish me Luck!!

Next in action is going GREEN!!

Changes-- Inevitable part of life

Ah!! Its been pretty long time since I updated my blog. Lot of developments, my son is gonna be 2 this June. he has become a lot more independent in his activities , more into fun activities, developing friendships, stranger anxiety becoming completely negligible, socializing skills improving and all the good things that happen when you send your kid to a day care.

Well that being said, as a mom am I happy with it? Of course yes, but somehow somewhere I am unable to overcome the guilt, earlier I use to know before hand what my son wants and needs were, but now he asks and he is clear what he needs and what he wants. Well of course I am a working mother now, I have my job, responsibilities and a family to take care of.

I sometimes have this discussion with my mom, as whether I am doing the right thing for my son to leave him in someone's care, my mom says you have to let him go at some point in time in your life so let it be now. My question is "is it early to I let him go" I mean not in the literal sense but trying to make him independent. I know sometimes as a mom I over think and complicate things but I just wanted to let it out today.Maybe coz my mom was a working mother and I know the thinking of a kid practically since I underwent through it every day. I remember the times I use to miss my mom.So am I doing the same thing to my son, I get restless when I think about those things.But on the other hand, I would give all the credit to my mom to all her efforts to make me independent which framed my character and the outlook I have/had towards life.

This got intensified when I saw the Oprah's show on  Sex and the City Author (Candace Bushnell). She got married at the age of 41 to a really young guy and were happily married for 10 years until they decided to part ways.The one thing she said caught my attention quite a bit " A woman can have just one thing, either a good Career or a good family,". Well I disagree to that and times are changing a Woman can have both its all about managing the expectations and be truthful and accepting responsibility.

Maybe you could call these as the ramblings of a working mom.I am sure I would get a clarity on this some day and would be able to justify it to my kids when they question me in the future(which I hope not).